I have been completely transformed through this experience. Previous to this, I didn't think I hated my body, but I couldn't say that I really loved it either. It was just a body. My body. Which was a little too pale, chunky, without the chunk even being in the right places, short, nothing amazing about it really. Through this experience I wanted to see how I looked through someone else's lens. I wanted to truly learn to appreciate and love myself and my body. I was so so nervous on the day, I would be getting stark naked, boobs out, vajayjay out in the breeze, every insecurity I had about myself out and about for all to see. It was really intimidating. However, Tara made it so easy. I literally took one look at her and felt so at ease, I remember thinking honestly what could go wrong.
So I didn't over think, I just ripped my dress off, threw it down and started to pose. It felt weird at first, I have never modelled before so I had no idea what to do, but it actually came quite naturally. I was very conscious the whole time that I was naked, but I think my perception of what that meant to me changed, I went from being so so nervous I thought I was going to have a panic attack to almost forgetting to put my dress back on when we were done.
When I got the pictures back I almost couldn't believe that it was me. Was this what I looked like to everyone else. I didn't look at the rolls on my stomach, or the marks on my thighs, or the dips on my hips as disgusting, I looked at the whole picture and saw a strong, beautiful, fiery, and brave woman. And now I show the pictures to everyone (whoever wants to see them of course). I'm so proud of my body, and I can say now that I truly love it.
I cannot recommend Tara enough, she is sunlight in human form. The warmest person I have ever met, with such a passion to help others that I can't help sometimes but be swept up in it. I knew that I could trust her with all my doubts and body insecurities and I that I was safe with her. She helped me to love my body in a way I never have before.
This experience was truly empowering and I cant wait to to it again!
...HANNAH
